The Lord has been reminding me of my blessings this past year. So here is how I looked up and found HOPE:
This year has been a particularly tough year with family relationships. In the Spring was the one year anniversary of my father’s passing, with whom I didn’t have a healthy relationship. I spent my whole life trying to win his approval, to no avail. You see, when I was 18 I disappointed my father and he told me, “As far as I’m concerned you are no longer my daughter.” And he meant it. The relationship ended. I reached out at times, even toward the end when he had cancer, trying to mend things. It wasn’t meant to be.
This type of rejection is heartbreaking, if my earthly father couldn’t love me, how could my heavenly Father love me? It was with the help of my small group and hearing there for the first time the song “Good Good Father”, by Chris Tomlin, and then multiple times on WCIC, that I got it! HE really loves me….unconditionally! He wakes me up every morning at 3:30 am and that’s my quiet time with Him. So, the verse that says:
Oh, I’ve heard a thousand stories of what they think you’re like
But I’ve heard the tender whispers of love in the dead of night
And you tell me that you’re pleased
And that I’m never alone
IT REALLY HIT HOME!
I can always look up and find my HOPE! For HE is my Good Good Father!